I could generalize here, saying that it's ALWAYS during the "radio silence" or the "pregnant pause" that things are in fact most active...but instead of applying these slogans globally I'll simply say that in MY life, in the last few weeks, this pregnant –yet not pregnant – pause has been filled with plenty of action, many thoughts and uncertain plans for the future.
While I'm not yet ready to reveal what's been on my mind – for reasons of career and academic future – I will say that the winds of change are blowing. This time I'm hoping they're not the winds of a winter storm, but of a summer breeze that will land us just exactly where we are supposed to be.
Some of the things I am willing to admit right now to are these:
Oliver is taking soy formula now and I'm feeling the relief of it all – lessening his dependence on my body.
I recently bought $12 worth of clothes FOR MYSELF at JCP. Two shirts and one pair of pants...yes all for $12. I NEVER find things for myself and it was exciting.
I cleaned my kitchen appliances last week with Qtips and toothpicks. Damn, that feels good.
We got one cool tip on Easter Eggs from Andrea just today (and did a trial run).
Instructions: Boil eggs. While they are still hot – color on them with crayon. Refrigerate.
MUCH EASIER than dying them in water and all of that.
How do you prepare to tell a 5-year-old that he isn't indeed famous anymore and as of Monday will be just an ordinary preschooler once again? All the fame of Charlotte's web has gone to Axel's head and he's demanding things like "Make sure my cast shirt is clean" and "Mom, you can nail that newspaper to my wall while I'm at school."
Has it all gone too far? I should say not. These 6 weeks of rehearsal and performance have, in my opinion, been worth 3 years of preschool combined. The things he's learned: deadlines, dressing himself, keeping track of his own things, remaining quiet and walking in line, communication, it doesn't matter how big your part is...it's just fun to be a part, the thousand times he's written his name...sorry...autographed his name, I could go on and on. Hanging around the older kids and being given direction just one time (and then being required to follow it) have created a new kind of confidence in this kid!
Yesterday was his first day back at school after a week's worth of morning performances (for the local school field-trips...over 4200 students saw the play). When I picked him up he was back to his unsettled self. "How was school today?" I asked. "It was a work alone day..again." The punishment for chatty behavior the day before. Grrr. One tiny step backwards.
While school will always be there and the mundane tasks of life will trudge on – and we need to teach our children how to deal with these as well – it's so good to know that every once in a while your kid gets to shine and you can see them under a whole different set of stage-lights!
Above: Green Room where the kids get ready. Below: Article in this weeks local paper.
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